Friday, April 18, 2014

Journal 3-28-14

Revelation 21:8 – But the fearful, unbelieving, abominable, the murderers, whoremongers, sorcerers, idolaters, and all the liars shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone; which is the second death.
Psalm 58:3 – The wicked are estranged from the womb; they go astray as soon as they be born, speaking lies.
James 3:14 – But if ye have bitter envy and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth.

            It’s about 6:00 a.m. in Cameron Missouri, cool and supposed to be a beautiful day today. I have at my desk the pictures of my kids placed above its surface so I can admire them and remember daily what I’m missing. I’ll have to admit that I have some great looking kids and as I look at their pictures and think of their ages I can’t help recognizing their innocence and their potential. I know that once upon a time I was just as cute and probably just as innocent lol…. Maybe not quite that innocent. Anyway, I’ve chosen lies to talk about this morning and I have some confessions to make.
            From the time I was a very small boy, I found that lying made me feel better about myself and who I was. I guess I was very insecure and not very confident in myself and just wanted to be someone different. I think I wanted to live another life. It had to be 1st or 2nd grade when I found that lying could help me to feel better about myself. Why am I telling you guys this? Because from an early age Satan sank his teeth into my future and I really believe he used lying as the tool to pull me into the abyss that put me in the spot where I am today. I usually didn’t get caught lying, so I developed this attitude that it was o.k., it wasn’t that bad, and I would never get caught because I was good at it. As I got older that single sin in my life spread like a virus through my body giving birth to many more feel good techniques that were also wrong.
Looking back on my life, Satan used the most innocent things to trick me and get me firmly grounded in a lifetime of sin. It all started with lying. I know you all have told a lie or an untruth minimized or exaggerated at some point for some good reason I’m sure. As your Father, I’m here to tell you that lying is not cool, it is not o.k., and it will one day kill you if you don’t stop. It is maybe the worst thing a person can do at an early age. It spawns cheating, stealing, selfishness, lust, and much more. By the time I was an adult I could lie and not even know I was doing it. It had become so natural for me to fabricate a story that it became a habit I couldn’t even control.  I actually had to concentrate and try not to lie. I caught myself doing that very thing just the other day; making up stories that were simply not true. At 42 years old, sometimes I still have trouble telling the truth. I don’t do it on purpose. It just comes natural to me because I’ve done it so long. I’m telling you all this because I’m praying about this for me daily. It disgusts me, it’s not o.k., and if I make it through all the other things in my life I’ve been through and don’t get rid of this very bad habit, this seemingly innocent thing in my life will bring me down right where I started from just a few months ago. So don’t tell a fib, don’t make up stories, and don’t lie about anything. It will not have a happy ending.

Prayer: Father God, please help us to see that sin is sin and lying is too. Create in us a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within us. Cast us not away from your presence and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore me to the joy of your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit.

Thoughts: Satan uses the most ordinary seemingly innocent things to reel us in for life. So if it isn’t right, don’t do it. Read, pray, turn from sin, surround yourselves with people doing the same and then don’t forget to do these four things every day.

            I’m reading an old book by Billy Graham Angels. In the preface he prays “It is still my prayer that God will use this book (or my blog) to bring comfort to the sick and dying; to bring encouragement to those who are under the pressures of everyday living; to bring guidance to those who are frustrated by the events of our generation.” I like that prayer and could say “Ditto Billy”. I pray the same thing for the blog I’ve started. 

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