Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Journal 3-26-14

           I am proud to be a father. I am proud to be a father to Zarria Leach Carson, Nick Carson, Savanah Leach, Faith Leach, Hunter Leach, and Mia Kemp. They are all beautiful and I love them very much. It wasn’t too long ago that I had thoughts of giving up on my kids because it just seemed easier. Satan had me trapped. I was ready to give up on life all together. For those of you who know me, you might ask how that is possible. I never would have thought that I would have been able to let myself get to a spot that was so low I would consider giving up on my kids, their lives, and possibly my own.
Sin in my life is what bred that hopelessness. The little things piled up and turned into big things and then even bigger things. I did not have Jesus in my life. I prayed and knew right from wrong, but I had no real knowledge of the Holy Spirit. I was lost, wondering around in the wilderness. Sometimes hoping that a bear would attack or I would do enough dope that my heart would stop. Sin does that to people. Satan loves to watch people destroy themselves!
Do you know anyone in your life that suffers from the disease of sin? Do they have Jesus Christ to medicate with? Because I’ve tried all the other remedies and they don’t work. They will only feed the sickness and kill us. I don’t know how to tell a person how to give it all to God, but when you figure that out and what that means for you, the rewards are worthy of all the “crap” you had to put up with to get there. I’m sure everybody has their own breaking point and some may never make it to that spot where they just give up. I don’t know how to help those people other than to pray Ephesians 2:14 “For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on Earth is named, that according to the riches of His glory He may grant you to be strengthened with power through His spirit in your inner being. So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith, that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

Prayer: Your will be done Father. Create in us a clean heart and renew a right spirit within us. Cast us not away from your presence and take not your Holy Spirit from us. Restore us to the joy of your salvation and uphold us with a willing spirit. Amen

Thoughts: “You ever thought that maybe hopelessness is caused by our own poor choices and that hopefulness is only created by exactly the opposite which would be the turning from sin?!”



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