Friday, March 21, 2014

Journal 2-28-14

Isaiah 58:10-12

            If you pour yourself out for the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted then shall your light rise in the darkness and your gloom be as noon day. The Lord will guide you continually and satisfy your desire in scorched places and make your bones strong and you shall be like a watered garden, like a spring of water whose waters do not fail and your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt. You shall rise up the foundations of many generations. You shall be called the repairer of the breach, the restorer of streets to dwell in.
            It’s good to have a little hope today. Life is tough and we will always struggle with sin and the effects of sin in our lives. I was reading in Isaiah 58:10-12 and this scripture gave me hope. I’ve done so much in my life to oppress and bring my family down that it’s nice to know we can live with great expectation, that through our faith we are protected by the Lord our God. It’s nice to know and be encouraged that if I align my life with the will of God all can be restored even to those people’s lives that I love the most. The one’s whom I’ve hurt the most. It’s comforting to know that all the damage I’ve done will be rebuilt and that through my continuing faith I could raise up the foundations of many generations. God is good and He’s answering my prayers today. He’s restoring the streets for you, me, and my grandchildren all because we are pouring ourselves out for Him and His cause.
            All I’ve ever wanted to do is to leave my kids something to live on, an inheritance of some sort. Today I know that there is no amount of money I could earn or land I could purchase or business I could develop that could leave my kids and many generations to come an inheritance like that of the Lord. That’s the one thing that no jail, divorce court, child support, government, or anything else of this world can ever take from me and my family- the priceless inheritance that is stored for all of us in heaven. Thanks Lord!

Prayer: Heavenly Father, thank you! Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice. Thank you Lord for your many promises for all of us. Help all of us to see them Lord and show us all how to reach out and grab them. We need you Father God, we want you, and we thank you for your amazing grace. Amen.

Random Thought: Sometimes I get caught up in the ugly of the world and I get scared that nothing will ever get better. I have been at the spot before where I have lost hope, just wanted to give up and die! Nothing in my life was right. I don’t know how many times I’ve said “at this rate my kids and everybody would be better off without me!” Today when I look back on those very depressing times of my life I often looked to someone to pull me up or something. I notice that during those times of my life I was just wallowing in “the pit”. That might be the couch or the bed or my addiction. Never making an effort to change. It was just easier to give up. There is no telling how many people in this world suffer that very same thing. Some I know of and even care for. I don’t know what more to say to them except that it’s so much easier to do it God’s way than it is ours. There are certain things we must do as adults, as children of God, as people who live on this earth. We each have our own set of responsibilities. We cannot always do it for each other; sometimes we must do it for ourselves. The best way I know of to get started on that is read the Bible, pray to God, turn from sin, and run from anyone who is not doing the same no matter what! At least for the time being until you can get out of the pit and back on your own two feet!
            Today I recognize that every day of my life that I didn’t get up and read, pray, turn from sin, and surround myself with people doing the same, I was robbing from my children and the people I loved – Angela, Zarria, Nick, Savanah, Faith, Hunter, and Mia- the inheritance that I really wanted them to have, happiness! The chance to live the life they really deserved. Was I really that selfish? My loved ones deserve a warrior, one who will fight till the bitter end for the sake of Christ. Don’t yours deserve the same? If you think I’m talking to you, here’s your sign!!


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